The thing is I'm only organised at certain things, for example I'm terrible at keeping my house organised, it looks cluttered but I know where most things are, its organised chaos. I have letters in piles and I can never quite get putting the washing on at the right time, I often put it on too late so it only gets a short time on the line and ends up in the tumble dryer.
When it comes to work I am super organised I knew where everything was and what needed to be down at any point during the day, I had trackers for everything, The Tracker Queen was my name, people laughed at me but that's what made me good at my job. I like to know where everything is and I like it to all be in its own place. That's why I have so many different blogs, I like to keeps things separate, like things to be in their own little box, have their own place.
When we go away or have a day trip out I have to know where we're going, at what time and what we're doing. I hate being late, I mean really really hate being late, I will always get an earlier train, bus etc to make sure I'm on time, I'm generally early for most things. It actually males me feel sick if I'm going to be late for something, it makes me anxious, I get all sweaty and sometimes dizzy.
I have nightmares about being late and often don't sleep well the night before a big trip as I'm worried I will oversleep.
I double check everything before I leave the house, making sure I have tickets, any print outs I might need. I will keep checking on them throughout the day to make sure they are still there. I find that this need to be uber organised and fear of being late can sometimes ruin trips for me and I'm sure OH gets fed up with it, I just can't relax.
I really need to find a way to get over this fear and anxiousness I just don't know how to.