Just Not Enough

Josie over at Sleep Is For The Weak wrote a post this week on Balance, that thing that mother's covert the most, the balance between being a mother and your self, whether thats being a working mum or  a stay at home mum.

I'm really struggling to find a balance between being a mum to BG, a girl friend to OH, a blogger, a blog editor, trying to start up a buisness and being me. There just isn't enough time or money to do it all.

My main problem is I rush into things, I always have. For example on Sunday I started up a new blog on a whim!! A little bit of inspiration and a spare half hour and Make It, bake It was born Arrrrh like I haven't got enough to do.

I still need a job, my webshop and party planning has done nothing, I can't find the time to spend on it and its costing me money and I think it has to go for now, I just can't do it. I keep saying to my self "when I have the time I'll do this or do that" but the time isn't there. BG still isn't sleeping and every time we think we've got it sorted she gets ill or something happens and her sleeping through the night disappear which means on OH day when I should be focusing on builsing a business we're sleeping or I'm just too tired to focus on anything.

I've had no time to do any blog work, the plan was to do it at night when BG was sleeping so all my attention is on her during the day but she's not settling well, so by the time she's down its too late to do anything. We have no spare room for me to disappear too while OH watches her, so I grab the odd hour here and there, I'm praying that this ends soon and I get can get some real time to focus.

So I think my plan is to drop the business Its costing me money and I have none and hold off on my new blog launch until I really have the time to work on it. I need to find a job, which is still not looking good, there seems to be less and less vacancies and more and more unemployed to compete with.

The most important thing is BG and making sure she's sleeping well and then maybe I can work on the other stuff in the future. There is not enough me to go around at the moment.

I will still run the blogs I've got but no new projects for a while!

Why is it I can organise everything but not my life?

NM X